This Song Hurts

[kbaim]

Guys,

Please indulge me once again. I've asked Darrell to post a link here soon to a song I just wrote and recorded 12/11/04. He mentioned knowing the background of it made it a much more powerful listening experience, so here goes...

The song is called IF THIS IS GOODBYE. It was written for my mom (who is dying) during a week of going to the cemetary and buying cemetary plots, picking out caskets, meeting with the funeral director, considering hospice, talking with a rabbi, and watching my mom slip away.

I brought my guitar over there saturday, after my dad called me and said he couldn't wake mom. I got there and just sat and talked to her hoping she heard me. A couple hours later she opened her eyes, and I said to her I'm writing a song for her that's not done yet but would she like to hear it? She couldn't answer so I asked her to blink her eyes if she wanted to hear it. She blinked. So I played the song a few times through even though it was only halfway finished.

I then decided to finish it right there in her bedroom during the next hour as my dad sat nearby and jotted down some notes that must be eulogy related for when the time comes. All in all, a memory that will stick with me forever.

I recorded it with my Luke on the middle pickup, through the Line 6 Flextone II on the black panel setting with chorus and delay. No overdubs, no eq'ing even. Just from the amp on my second attempt. It's in DADGAD tuning and I played it with a pick

I really hope you like this one and it captures the feelings for those here who have lost or will soon lose loved ones.
Thanks so much for listening to it,
KEITH

 

[Dodgeball]

Keith,

I look forward to hearing your song and want to wish you all the best at what must clearly be a very painful time.

Take care

C

 

[dwf1004]

OK all, tried to post this link previously today, but was graced with the timing of doing so while the web folks were upgrading the backbone of the forums.

The link for Keith's song is: http://www.fulwilder.com/media/kbaim-if_this_is_goodbye.mp3

This will be up indefintely at this location, and for clarification I have removed the above "inquiry" threads about the link being posted, etc. since this is now (finally) resolved.

 

[OrangeChannel]

beautiful piece Keith....I'm sorry it's due to such a sad occurance....your family is in my thoughts....

 

[jongitarz]

Keith...Great song, and a moving story behind it. My thoughts and prayers are with you bro.

Jon

 

[koogie2k]

Keith....as usual...your playing is inspiring and awesome. What a wonderful piece for your mom....you and your family are in our prayers. Let me know if I can do anything for ya man....

 

[GWDavis28]

Keith, first off let me say how sorry I am to hear about your mom. My thoughts go out to you and your family. I listened to your song and it was sad and beautiful at the same time.

Thanx for sharing something so personal and moving.

Again I am sorry, Glenn

 

[SteveB]

Keith,

That's a beautiful piece that evokes a melancholy feeling in me. I am sorry for the circumstances that inspired it, but you did a nice job of capturing a moment in the mind.

 

[timrams88]

hey man than song really touches me, especially since a friend of my mine Kevin Nava got into a car accident and died monday afternoon i know its not family, but i still know what yours going threw sortof, but ill have you in my prayers

 

[bluebullet]

im sorry to hear about your mom. my prayers to you and your family in these difficult times.

 

[Lew]

Very touching song Keith.
best wishes to you and your family.

 

[kbaim]

Just wanted to say thank you all for listening to it. All your thoughts and well wishes are appreciated. The sad/beautiful comment by glenn was the emotion i was hoping most to capture within the song. And tim, losing a friend at your age, especially a close one is really tough. Make sure you can talk to someone.

My dad really wants me to perform the song at the funeral. That shouldn't be too hard

We were already planning on having a recording of my song I'LL MISS YOU (the sax/guitar duet that was up a while back) start the service off. And if i'm going to play live, I might throw in a couple of her favorites (sacred strings was one) as a special send off.

FUNNY STORY -- as my father and I met with the rabbi, I brought a recording of I'll MISS YOU to play for him asking would it be alright if we play this? We all then listened to it and the rabbi said it was a really strong melody and a very lovely tune..he then started humming it back after it was over.

Then he goes, "You should really put words to this!"

I guess they don't know everything
KEITH

PS special thanks to darrell

 

[musikarero]

Keith I just listened to your song and my wife had tears in her eyes while listening too. Very nice! Our prayers are with you and your family!!

 

[brentrocks]

that is a great piece. our thoughts and prayers are with you.

 

[deadringer]

Keith, I feel honored that you shared such a personal story and song with us. I also would like to offer you my best wishes. Loss can be very difficult, I hope you have someone to talk with. If not feel free to PM and we can hook up over the phone. This time of year is always a little somber .

 

[scottie]

Hi Keith,

I'm so sorry to learn of your mother's sickness. I know it must be hard on
you and your family. I wish I had something more profound to say other
than, "Hang in there buddy, everything will be okay" If ya need to vent,
you can count and me and many other forum buddies to listen.

On a lighter note, I do enjoy you're playing and I hope hear more of soon.
Not only is you're playing inspirational, but also your courage during this
hard time,

Take care,
--scottie

 

[Raz]

Sorry for your loss Keith.... I thought the tune was wonderful, very smooth...nice style! I think it was nice what you did, it takes courage!

 

[dwf1004]

PS special thanks to darrell

Hey, none necessary bud...just getting my Spike Lee on, and opting to "do the right thing".

 

[NorM]

No time to lose, adhere to this
"Become you fears," they cried
"Let us feed on this misery within the missing child."
We sacraficed our love, our lives
and somewhere along the way
we found escape through memories within
and discovered where peace lay.
Heather

In listening to the music, all I could say was "wow."

 

[tvanveen]

Best wishes.